It’s no secret. I’m longing to begin a new season of life. I crave the day when I can minister, nurture, and serve as a mother. I dream about seeing David minister, provide, and lead as a father.
As I anticipate this future season, however, it is easy to miss out on what God has called me to today. I have been called to minister, nurture, and serve as a wife, an employee, a volunteer, and so on. I want to invest in this day, this season, and this calling. I don’t want to miss out on today because I’m dreaming about tomorrow.
But I’d be lying if I said it was easy. There are nights when I wake up from dreams about babies. There are days when I can’t seem to think of anything but baby names.
It’s no secret: I want to be a mom. The whole truth, though, is that there are also things I want more than I want to be a mom. On the particularly tough days, I run through the list as a personal reminder.
- I want to delight myself in the Lord more than I want to be a mom.
- I want to follow Jesus more than I want to be a mom.
- I want to be led by the Spirit more than I want to be a mom.
- I want to closely follow His steps – not running ahead or lagging behind – more than I want to be a mom.
- I want to respect David’s feelings, opinions, and convictions more than I want to be a mom.
- I want to invest in what/where/who God has called me to today more than I want to be a mom.
- Ultimately, I want Jesus more than I want the God-given, life-long ministry of being a mom.
Elisabeth Elliot put it perfectly when she wrote, “My heart was saying, ‘Lord, take away this longing, or give me that for which I long.’ The Lord was answering, ‘I must teach you to long for something better.'”
Oh Lord, may I not only long for Your gifts, Your calling, and Your direction. May I long for something better. May I long for You.