Seven Things I Want More Than I Want to Be a Mom

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It’s no secret.  I’m longing to begin a new season of life.  I crave the day when I can minister, nurture, and serve as a mother.  I dream about seeing David minister, provide, and lead as a father.

As I anticipate this future season, however, it is easy to miss out on what God has called me to today.  I have been called to minister, nurture, and serve as a wife, an employee, a volunteer, and so on.  I want to invest in this day, this season, and this calling.  I don’t want to miss out on today because I’m dreaming about tomorrow.

But I’d be lying if I said it was easy.  There are nights when I wake up from dreams about babies.  There are days when I can’t seem to think of anything but baby names.

It’s no secret: I want to be a mom.  The whole truth, though, is that there are also things I want more than I want to be a mom.  On the particularly tough days, I run through the list as a personal reminder.

  • I want to delight myself in the Lord more than I want to be a mom.
  • I want to follow Jesus more than I want to be a mom.
  • I want to be led by the Spirit more than I want to be a mom.
  • I want to closely follow His steps – not running ahead or lagging behind – more than I want to be a mom.
  • I want to respect David’s feelings, opinions, and convictions more than I want to be a mom.
  • I want to invest in what/where/who God has called me to today more than I want to be a mom.
  • Ultimately, I want Jesus more than I want the God-given, life-long ministry of being a mom.

Elisabeth Elliot put it perfectly when she wrote, “My heart was saying, ‘Lord, take away this longing, or give me that for which I long.’  The Lord was answering, ‘I must teach you to long for something better.'”

Oh Lord, may I not only long for Your gifts, Your calling, and Your direction.  May I long for something better.  May I long for You.

2 Comments on “Seven Things I Want More Than I Want to Be a Mom”

  1. Not sure how I missed this entry, When they day comes that God calls you to be a mom, you will be an awesome one because you have already figured out that your “success” as a mom is directly in proportion to your love of Jesus and David.

    1. Just saw this comment. Thank you! This was my very first post, and I actually wanted to get these thoughts down so badly that it inspired me to start a blog.

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